the history major in me

Ever since law school, I feel like I'm always hustling. My life feels smaller. My mind doesn't take time to wander from one huge idea to the next, but focuses narrowly on how I'm going to complete day to day tasks. Blogging has turned into beauty blogging and not as much of an introspection as my old journal used to be.

Part of it is because law school has made me so self-conscious. It's really not conducive to idealism, and everyone judges (me included). I worry that my classmates will see my thoughts, and granted, I do choose to put them out there, so I should be prepared for all the haterade. It's hard to be that strong.

I miss studying history. I miss thinking about the vast realm of all that has gone on before me, rather than the small space that comprises my everyday life. I miss going to Black April commemorations. I haven't been any lately, since they always coincide with finals. I want to come out and show a young face, to show that young people still care. We haven't forgotten the sacrifices of the past. Although our tongues become stiff, our history remains a part of our identity, stronger than all the stereotypes thrust upon us.

Thanks Bao Phi for reminding me of the Vietnamese in me.

3L gala

I didn't take too many pictures, because I was too lazy to run around tracking down all my close friends. I went with a hot pink dress from H&M. I found a mask downtown for $3, which cost less than all the materials I was going to use to make my mask. I made Kevin's panda mask though, because it was easy. Everything came together pretty nicely at the last minute.

masquerade masks

Instead of working on my TM outline, I am looking at beautiful masquerade masks on Etsy. Check out The Crafty Chemist's store here.

I am probably going to wear a purple dress, so I've been looking at pink and purple masks. I love the ornate detail on these masks. This must have been bling in the olden days.

I plan to make my own mask, so I'll probably keep it simple like these masks found at Party Mask's shop.

old haul- shoes and nail polish

I am never home in the middle of the day, so I wanted to take advantage of the natural light and took some of my stuff outside to shoot.

First up, I've been looking for nude heels for ages and finally found a pair over Xmas. Yayyy.





These were thrifted, but I can see that they were made by Y-Not. They are not very comfortable, so you can probably see that I inserted Dr. Scholl ball of foot cushions. They were a life saver with my black heels, but not so much with these.

To add to my nude shoe spree, I got some flats from Old Navy while I was in SF.



Old Navy- $13



Polishes I got from a nail supply store in Garden Grove. OPI polishes were half price!

Beauty Zone
9920 Westminster Ave, Suite B
Garden Grove, CA 92844
http://www.yelp.com/biz/beauty-zone-garden-grove

Review:

These are my first OPI polishes and I don't see what all the fuss is about. They weren't that smooth. They chipped pretty easily and they weren't very pigmented. Overall, I was not that impressed. The China Glaze was pigmented and pretty, but I think the mint green was too light and didn't look pretty against my skin tone.

another lost weekend

Every time I drive to Kevin's house, I stay for days just to justify the drive to Rosemead. This weekend, we went looking for my gala dress. It was a bad idea to look at my loans before embarking on this shopping trip. Kevin, predictably, bought more than I did. I settled on this dress, which I am not too pleased with. Yves pointed out that it flattened out my boobs. I agree. My boobs deserve better.



On second look, the poofy dress makes it look like I have a belly. Yep, definitely going to return.

We went to dinner for his dad's bday at this hole in the wall Hawaiian grill by his house. There were fish tanks at every booth. It was kind of like a poor man's Rainforest Cafe, with more live animals.

In case you missed seeing my face, here is my FOTD from going out to Sweet Lady Jane with Yves. 1/2 off pastries after 8:30 PM. Woot.

Conversation with my old boss (figuratively and literally):

Old Boss: Well, why don't you just go out and get your own clients?
Me: There are these things called malpractice suits.

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Let's not talk about graduation. Let's not talk about the rest of my life. As much anxiety as this unknown future is wreaking on my system, I have to say that I love my day to day life. I always have people to laugh with. There's a tub full of muffins in my trunk. I can read NY Times using my USC library link (stupid 20 articles a month limit). Life is pretty good, even though I keep forgetting to chronicle it. (I was in Santa Barbara last weekend and no pictures!) I have the 3L Gala to look forward to. Only in law school would they call buying tickets to this event "registration for the 3L Gala." It sounds so gross and depressing, doesn't it? Registering. Our theme is masquerade, so I'll be on the look out for a mask too. This entry is going to end abruptly, because I don't know what else to say.