itchy fingers

I got a bunch of make up for my birthday (and just because). I've been itching to post some hauls and looks, but I can't! Stupid finals. I resorted to taking a webcam picture at Corner Bakery wearing NARS velvet matte lip pencil in Damned just to quell the craving. I cannot wait until all this is over.




Love life is still nil. I'm okay with that, but sometimes, someone will snap a picture like this and it'll remind me of how I miss being part of a couple.



From the other diary:

Giving in and holding out. Near misses and sudden collisions. Love doesn't come when you want it to. It's always a huge accident. How do I shake this feeling that it always comes so close and then zooms right by with me on the sidelines.

Thankful

Thankful for my friends, whose generosity never ceases to amaze me.

Thankful for my parents, whose love and patience remind me to be a better person.

Thankful for my family, always a phone call away.

Thankful for all the privileges I am afforded and all those who came before me who secured them for my generation.

(Sorry Natives.)

11.19.04

This morning, I dragged myself out of bed and zoned my way through Bus Orgs. I went to work, settled myself in my routine and called my mom to wish her a happy birthday.

There was a time when I thought of her first and my mom's birthday second. My old roommate reminded me that it's been five years to the date today. When she died, everyone that loved her felt it. More than a tragedy, a suicide leaves behind all these unraveled pieces. All my best friends are my best friends because we were together that night and were together in the days that followed. We had a one year memorial. Then the year after that, another one. I can't remember where I was the year after that or the year after and now, today was a day just like any other. I was startled by how quickly those wounds sewed themselves back up.

I wonder if anyone else remembers. We've all come so far from a group of college sophomores, bewildered and bereaved.

Don't hesitate to show anyone you appreciate them. You never know when you'll have to say goodbye.

from Marjorie's page

"Don't search for the answers, which could not be given you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."

Clinique effed up my face

No kidding. They put purple and silver shadow EVERYWHERE and lined my upper but not my lower lid. Additionally, the MUA did not curl my lashes before applying mascara. I looked terrible.



I stood in line for 2 hours at the Clinique Fresh Faces truck for that wonderful souvenir.

I went home and added some eyeliner. Here's the after picture:



I still don't get how they made me look 14 in the professional picture.

corner lashes

I'm obsessed with full lashes. I usually put the corner lashes on top of a set of regular lashes, but since two sets of Darkness lashes don't layer very well, I had to settle with just one set. It was cute anyway.



Full face:



I'm wearing the drug store foundation again. That's why my face looks so white.

Daily injustices (things that suck)

1) Best Buy's Insurance Policy

I bought one for my laptop. The spacebar key feels weird. I came in and asked them order me a new one. The Geek Squad guy told me they would have to send it into the service center. Estimated wait time for them to get it back to me? 2-4 weeks. 2-4 weeks?? Without my laptop??? Do they want to take my right arm too? Never. I asked if I could just take it there myself, have them look at it and order a replacement part for me. The answer was no. There was no way for it to be done any faster. I don't understand how HP can do my repairs and mail it back to me within 2-3 days but Best Buy needs 2-4 weeks. They suck.

2) The lady at the DMV

I went to take a new picture since my license expires next week. I made an appointment, barely had to wait, and so excited to finally take a good picture. I headed over to the picture taking area. There was no one else there. The lady motioned for me to come forward. I stood in front of the screen and started smoothing down my hair. SNAP. FLASH. What. The. She didn't even wait for me. What is the rush?? She sucks.

This was a shorter list than I expected. I guess not that many things suck.